ACCIDENT

It seems ages ago but it might have been on 11th February 2011. It was a normal and busy day as always. I got on my bike and set off to the site for some inspection. I was just about 60 mtrs when I collided with a dumper. I work in a Hydro Power construction on behalf of the client in some place called Dagana in Bhutan. It is a 126 MW project meant for the social benefit to the area. I couldn't understand the philosophy behind building a small project in this area at first. But during my stay here I understood the why? Dagana is a god forsaken land and the source of income here I found is Oranges and few quarry mining sites. Besides that there a few contractors and lot of government employees. There is only one higher secondary school in the District.The ethnic groups comprises mainly of Lotshampas(Nepali) and groups all over from Bhutan. As far as I know this happened because of alternative land location issued by the government during the early 70s when the first road construction started in Bhutan. In short the people whose land came in the road alignment were compensated by the government by providing them land in other parts of Bhutan. The people here are very simple and arrogant :). So in large picture I see lots of changes which will come after the completion of this project. Better schools and also the improvement of education standards in the old schools. Lots of business opportunities and best of all better transportation. Dagana is a land locked district there is one one entry point, once you get there you have to use the same road to get out from there. There has been a resent talk on paving of motor road from Dagana to Chukha which means shorter duration of travelling. A small project affecting the live of a district. I wouldn't be surprised if I see a airport in the near future.

Coming back to my accident.......lets say that the driver of the dumper was talking to a xyz person and his head was turned to the left. I was travelling at around 20 kmph and shot my break and honked zillion times. The sound of the crushing plant just below the road and the drivers zero concentration nullified my bikes horn. The road I would say is around 5 mtrs width on that stretch. And as far as I saw from the picture I was at the far left near the drainage. So anyway in a fraction of second I felt a thud and next thing I know I was under the tyre. In those seconds I saw that the driver was still talking to that xyz person. My mind went blank and completely vacuum. I felt only fear and nothing else. The dumpers tyre was hauling its might to climb over the tyre of my bike. I was dragged under the tyre for 3 mtrs and might have lasted about 20 secs. As I scratch my memory I can remember there was only one thing I said to myself "THIS IS IT THIS IS THE END ". Subconsciously my body was adjusting to the force of the bumper twisting my leg to break it. I was adjusting myself and twisting my body in the same direction to avoid that. Those seconds was the longest so far I felt.When you feel death so close you don't give a damn to any bullshits. Mind becomes blank and your body fight for its survival like its programmed. I thought I could never drive a bike but yesterday night I had some emergencies at the site and I had to drive my friends bike(mines in the workshop). I did not feel anything other than the fact that this bike was different and I was adjusting to maneuver it.All reason and philosophy stop when you know that you are going to die in the cruelest way. I have heard about accidents where the victims intestine flows over the pavement and the brain oozing from the skull. I don't wanna die like this. Whose ever fault it might be the loser is the dead. No God and no reasons just the end.

THE BLAST

Today is 5th February 6:12 pm. And I havent slept well yesterday because I was preparing some report for the meeting today.The meeting was over before we knew it because all my attention was to the feast being prepared in the kitchen today. Lousy bastards why was the kitchen so damn near to the confernance room. I could smell and guess what the cook was cooking. Anyway the meeting was over and my bladder was about to blast from the 1 liter of water I drank earlier. Holding your piss is a torture. I unloaded it and returned happily like a child and got in the que.
There was boiled eggs and beef steamed with spinach (I felt like Popeye) and a dal and a mixed salad. Damn I was hungry I always wait eagerly for this day for the entire month. Did I tell you that this meeting takes place once in every month and we have to submit some progress report and stuff. Anyway the real story starts now it is about work:).So it was yesterday when some bunch of officers including me collected some sample for testing in the lab.It was decided that we would do the test today after the meeting. I reached the lab by 3:30 pm and I was happy and did some friendly chat with other guys. Then I went to check the samples and lo the sample was changed and it wasnot which we collected together.
Anyway whatever you might call it a tiring day / stress but I like to say some Chinese Mao Zhing Hitler Bin Laden devil got inside me and I gave him such a mouth thrashing.I am a very peace loving and mind your own business person. I vouch on that but that was something which I call a professional fraud. That dude was an old man some 50 years older than me and far experienced and better qualified than me.He was about to cry and he was giving his resignation. Then the god inside me awoke up and I said some shit to pacify him.And after 30 mins we were all laughing and talking and all that shit. I feel sorry for that guy anyway lets hope this thing happens again.

Powerless Zombies

There are always the day when I feel powerless.There is nobody you can blame but you want to break someones skull and poke a hot iron inside your brain to see you have some disease.How long one person fight/ thinks like he fights or resist against the whole battalion.I can't blame them and I don't blame them.I blame their fathers and mothers and our ancestors who caste this unbreakable spell who put the generations to sleep. They eat,they walk,they work,they reproduce and they die like I do.But the difference I observed is motive. Is motive important than the result? Yes it is the most important why did you raise a child so that he can support me in the end and because Mrs X and Mr.Y has a son who is in USA fucking his head off.Don't the child have a life of his own and even before he is 8 he begins to realize that he is nothing but just a robot and then he will create another robot who in turn will create another. There comes a huge gap of productive and inspiring human being. Unhappy people,lost people,mindless people better termed as ZOMBIES.
So who shall we point the finger to? The system at its source but how can you change the system? Is it better to change the system or the mentality of the people or both? Can we do it if then how long will it take?Who is going to do it , can I do it more importantly can we do it ?Am I thinking too much and wasting my time.

" IGNORANCE IS BLISS "

SIMPLY

I feel obliged to myself first to start with an Introduction and the meaning to the name I have chosen for my blog.

"Simply "the way of life. The true nature of human beings. I never intend to create a dogma or any scriptures inscribed or creed. I neither have the capacity nor the will to do it. Because I know that any dogma or any belief or any philosophies are as rationale and reasonable as the architect himself.It can never be copied nor followed by any living person. The belief dies with the creator. It may create foot steps on the sand for the others to inspire and become a creator himself. Well there are few who had realized and felt the life and found for themselves without any living persons help. That is a true religion. No idols and no sermons and prayers and no God but only yourself as the center of being.
If we live by our own standards and beliefs, without any living persons advice . How beautiful this world would be! We have sown the seed to peace and love which now a days have become a slogan or an line in the add or in the magazine in the toilet. There wouldn't be any room for today's religion. If I am happy why should I seek the help from any body. Do you see what kind of world we would be living in, a world where every human being will live honestly. Where there won't be any people sleeping hungry ,or at least there wont be any people feeding the hungry to earn deeds but because it will be a voluntary act.
There will be the practice of true transfer of goods and services. Because every material and services will be weighed on credence of need and the goods and the services will be the sole credibility but not the profit.
Humanitarian is not a rule and it can't neither be obliged nor forced nor neglected.Everything that is forced down ones throat becomes a disease. And from it will be born Genghis Khan,Napoleon, Hitler, Saddam Hussein and Al Queda. Nothing could ever be forced because the counter balance it lies its foundation is ignorance. Ignorance as in the tale we had heard from childhood about a frog in its well and its capacity to understand does not cross the boundary of its well.
Swami Vivek Ananda as I believe has been the person who understood the root cause and the den of all evil ,the mind. The mind if nurtured properly becomes harbinger of prosperity to oneself and if not then it becomes the chest of destruction to all . Many of the evil had been brought to the world unknowingly.The first bow and arrow was a tool and not a weapon created by the creator for forraging and hunting and later the users converted it into so called weapon. The nuclear technology was invented for the better of the human world ,the power of sun at the disposal of the human race and now it has become a sceptre of power. The internet was created for one and one purpose only to facilitate fast communication and now it has been moulded to pass the information of brutality. The firt satelite was launched for one purpose only to study the atmosphere around us and now it has become a vital weapon. So that is very short lists of things which I call the biggest sin man has ever done. How it happens nobody knows why it happens everybody knows with their own set of brutalistic justification in the nameof injustice,humanity ,religion,society,etc. The only set of violence accepted is self defence. Others are all bull shit.

I created this blog for myself.